It was so sad, even though memorials are supposed to be happy. They never are.
And I started thinking on the long car ride home.
What am I doing with my life?
Am I making peoples' lives better worth living by my own existence?
Am I changing the world?
Am I a good person?
I just don't know, and that scares me more than a little.
So I must ask you, dearest readers, to leave a small comment...
D o e s H o r s e F e a t h e r s e n r i c h y o u r l i f e i n a n y w a y , h o w e v e r m i n i s c u l e ?
Even if I've just made you smile on a bad day. Even if you just decided to pick up a camera because of a pretty picture. Even if the blog just inspired you, even a little bit.
Because more than anything, I am terrified of not being worth anything, not being able to make peoples' lives better, not making a difference.
I don't want to be scared.
Excuse me, I'm going to make a mug of tea and say a few prayers now.
Just to fill up the emptiness.
Olive Tree, you have inspired many other bloggers, and I have witnessed some. You have made people want to become a photographer because of you. Again, I have witnessed it. And of course, you have inspired many bloggers because just look at your followers! They love what you do. If they didn't, now would they be following?
ReplyDeleteOh sweet friend. I know everyone goes through the exact feelings that you're experiencing. And YES. Horsefeathers never ceases to inspire me. I do a little mental happy dance every time I see you've posted something new. Your photos are beautiful - they make me want to become a better photographer. And you're just as cute as can be. I looove your tutorials and fashion posts. And you're so dang unique!
ReplyDeleteSo, yes. Horsefeathers enriches my life. As do you ;)
Oh, Olive Tree. Your blog has changed me in so many ways. Your blog cheers me up every time I check it. You have taught me that pictures really are worth a thousand words. You proved to me that it's okay to be random in public. Love ya!
ReplyDeleteyour photography inspires me.
ReplyDeleteYES! Every time I come on I am so happy to see a new post and lovely pictures! I wanted to let you know that I am praying for you as you touch people through your blog. I hope God blesses you and His love and goodness just radiates from you!!!
ReplyDeleteYou have not inspired me, but enlightened me with the beauty in every post, every picture. I love you writing style and photographs. Because of your lovely photos, I started taking photos. Those photos got me into a photography class. Because of me getting into that class, I sold a few photos, donated the money to my local hospital. Don't doubt yourself. You inspire me to my fullest.
ReplyDeleteOh, Olive. You are a huge inspiration...I love your photos, your posts, you. You are amazing. Like, seriously;) I always brighten up when I check my dashboard and there's a post of yours waiting for me to read. I am so, so glad I came across your blog...and you. Love ya, dear!
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Hannah M
Yes, I just recently came across your blog and have been inspired at the power of God in your life...keep it up...your photography is beautiful.
ReplyDeleteOlive: you bring a smile on a bad day. Your a wind of inspiration on a rainy one and your life shouts "let's go!". Many of us would have never thought to see things in the way that you do but now so many people have been opened up to a whole new world of art; whether it be photography or poetry or maybe even seeing the world through a new lense. And for me? You've certainly opened me to a world I thought did not exist. A world where you can find items of eternal beauty in the dampness of gray fog of everyday life. Our world.
ReplyDeleteYou are an amazing artist, photography, designer and friend: and don't let anyone tell you otherwise.
Thanks for all the great times and inspirations. -Eskän
I've been meaning to say this for a while. Your blog is amazing. You have inspired me so very much. You are amazing, even though I don't know you, I actually talk about you a lot to my mom saying "Hey mom, look at what this girl Olivia did!" or "Mom, this girl is amazing, she has her own blog which has A WHOLE BUNCH of followers, an amazing writer, author, has an amazing etsy, is an awesome photographer, great at graphic design..." etc, etc. You have truely inspired me. You make me want to get off my butt and do things, be creative. :)
ReplyDeleteYour blog is one of my favorites. Looking at your photos helps me appreciate the beauty in all the small things of life. They make me want to take my camera and go outside and celebrate. :)
ReplyDelete~Starr
You are living the blogger dream, my friend! Your blog is very inspiring and makes me want to revel in the beauty of life. You have the kind of blog I want! I love your pictures and posts, so keep doing what you are doing!!
ReplyDeleteLove, Abbie =D x0x0x0x
You have inspired us! You make me smile on a bad day, take a picture, be in a happier mood. When I get on Blogger, the first thing I look for is an Olive Tree post. Hope you are ok.
ReplyDelete:) You have inspired me in many ways, Olive Tree. You have taught me to think about things in a different perspective. You have taught me that there is more than one way to take pphotography. I AM NOT JUST SAYING THIS. Even though I don't know you in real life, it is a pleasure reading your posts and photography. Please don't be afraid. :)
ReplyDeleteOh, Olive... your blog makes me smile on bad days, inspires me, and let me tell you: you're one of the main reasons why I took up photography and why I'm still inspired to continue.
ReplyDeleteRemember that.
<3
Emma
You have definitely helped me in many ways. Your post about becoming more extroverted has helped me become more outgoing and make some new friends. And the playlists you leave on some posts help me when I'm having a bad day.
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[Laurea]
Yes, sweet friend. Horsefeathers does. You do. I've been feeling this way lately as well, and actually, have had a post sitting in my archives for a few weeks about this, just waiting. I'll pray for you, Liv!
ReplyDeleteYou inspire SO many people! When I wasnt feeling well, I saw that video of you and your friend dancing to those songs, and that made my day. You seem to have so much to offer to many people! So keep posting!
ReplyDeleteOlivia, you ARE worth something, as is your blog. I know many people have been inspired by your photography as have I. Keep on photographing and writing for the Lord and following Him, and your life will be filled with more than you can imagine. I understand how you feel. But I think we're each worth more than we realize, and so are you. Love you!:)
ReplyDeletep.s. Pray. That and digging into God's Word is the best possible thing you can do. :D
Dearest Olive Tree,
ReplyDeleteYou have inspired me in so many ways through this little 'bit of heaven'. Your sweet, fun-loving spirit is a joy to see through your photography and poetic musings. I have smiled and been inspired more times than I can tell you by the beauty you share so freely with us. Thank you!
Honestly, these are major questions that I've personally been dealing with the last few weeks - the only place I have found comfort and purpose from it is in prayers and the Bible (...and more than one cup of hot chocolate!). (the Psalms are the best... it's kinda comforting to know that David and the other songwriters went through the same things, and wrote about it for us!)
I'm praying that somehow, someway, Jesus will work through me to make a difference in other people's lives, that my existence will not have been for nothing, but that I will bless others with my life.
I'll be praying for you as we walk this road (sort of) together!
Thank you for the sprinkles of stardust that your blog inspires me with. :)
Love you!
~Kimmy
Oh, Olive Tree. Whenever I see a new post of yours in my dashboard, I race to it before anyone else's. Just today, I went on a ride to take photos, because of you. In other words, you inspire me greatly.
ReplyDeleteTo me, Olive Tree, you're everything I want to be. I know that sounds very cheesy, but I mean, you're a model, you're a professional photographer, you've published a book, you've got a ton of knowledge of html, you've been in a music video with Taylor Swift, and you're popular in school.
You're inspiring.
Lots of love,
Guin
Your blog is a ray of sunshine in my blogging world. Just remember, God loves you very much. You were put on this earth for a purpose. I love your blog.
ReplyDeleteOf course you're worth something! Heck you have a book out that I'm sure is making a bunch of people happy. :) And your blog has made me smile and laugh out loud a million times. :) Don't be scared.
ReplyDeleteOlivia, I think we all worry about this at your age...not to dismiss it. In answer to your questions, YES you do improve people's lives. Ask Barbara, Lu and Tor for starters. Your attitude to life and wisdom beyond your years is also very inspiring to me...not to mention your wonderful photography. I squeal with delight when I see your work!
ReplyDeleteOne of my best bits of advice is to sit back and enjoy the roller coaster a little :)
Olive Tree, if you're consumed with Christ, your life and your photography/writing will inspire others. Because all that is not of Christ is temporary, and it is only the truth and love of God that enriches a life. A set apart girl of God is one whom I am inspired by. I am glad you are praying to fill up the emptiness. It's what we are designed to do.
ReplyDeleteMuch love and many blessings,
Annie
I think your photography inspires me. I always look forward to your posts, they are most of the time interesting. Honestly.
ReplyDeleteGod will listen to you! Keep praying!
PS: Why would you have so many followers if you didn't inspire them?
Whenever I see you posted on my dashboard, I save it for last because your posts are always a special treat :)
ReplyDeleteJust remember that NO ONE is a good person. Only through Jesus can we go to heaven and all that. It doesn't matter how good you are - HE LOVES YOU with an amazing love!
Look up Romans 8:39 :)
You lovely, live your life so well, capturing beauty in your photography, enlightening and inspiring me everyday in the smallest things. You make me smile whenever I call you and you are always there for me. You're amazing :)
ReplyDeleteThank you so, so much everyone. That means a lot to me. ((hugs))
ReplyDeleteOlive Tree, your blog is completely awesome. I go here when I want to just relax and look at amazing photos. I got so sad when you quit blogging for a while. =(
ReplyDeleteI'm praying for you!
Omg Olive. I think you should call me. You know how I got REALLY sick for almost the first like forty million years before and after school started? Yeah well, take you analogy and put it in my life. I think you and me have more in common than we thought.
ReplyDeleteI love your blog. Your writing, your photography, even your designing really inspires me. I think that you are changing the world for the better, if even bit by bit. I think just about everyone is. Best of luck!
ReplyDeleteOf course your blog inspires us!!! I check it everyday if not twice a day!
ReplyDeleteOh yes your blog is great,I always come back for more:D:D:D:
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